oh hatiku~~

minta maaf kepada sesapa yg ada terasa hati dengan saya....i cannot pretend to be someone i'm not :(

that's what i can really say tonight....taktaula kenapa hati ni..rasa nak marah pun ada, geram pun ada, bersalah pun ada...ntahla....

hanya Allah yang mengerti sebenarnya perasaan kita ni sebenar benarnya...org semua boleh kata itu ini terhadap kita, sedangkan kita ni takde pun niat nak menyakitkan,...if we are to be like who we are, how can we pretend to be someone else...huhu i am just the type of person who really enjoys my privacy and almost all the time, i'd like to be alone. i just don't know why, but that is simply me. Maybe how i've grown up has made me become the person i am.......

i do enjoy some company at times, when i choose to..and i'm glad that my best friend really understands that...when we really have some good free time, we'll meet up and have a chat..other than that, both us wouldn't mind the solitude and the not-contacting-each other for weeks, or even months?

i really get upset sometimes when people don't understand me, but then who am i to demand all that?

i did, at one time enjoy long conversations on the phone...but now, maybe i'm old enough to actually fill my time doing some reading...i mean SO MUCH reading that must be done and i don't even find myself to have the time to read everything...but when it comes to ppl bothering me and wanting my attention, and not really understanding the meaning of "sorry, i just don't wanna talk", i really get mad, not meaning that i blow up or anything...i just get this mixed feeling between guilt and grrr thing...guilty because i don't really have time to give all my attention to other people, and grrrrr because of the question in my mind that can't these people just understand my own needs............sometimes i feel that way too, in the midst of being alone and having no one to talk to...but i know i have someOne listening to me, waiting for my call each and every second of the day--and answers calls even at 3 in the morning.

Yes, Allah is the only one.

Again, i'm really sorry for not being able to become the person some people really want me to be...but take this advice, talk to HIM, coz He's listening all the time...and most of all, He reallly wants us to talk to HIM......coz afterall, even if u tell a person every single thing that's in ur heart, no one would just understand wht you go thru...it's HIM who knows..ALL Of it.

::Alhamdulillah::

Syukur alhamdulillah, dah hari ke-6 Ramadhan, mudah-mudahan dapat meneruskan lagi dengan penuh penghayatan pada hari-hari seterusnya...

This Ramadhan feels a little different. Don't know why, maybe because i'm getting more matured...somehow i still miss the prosperous month of Ramadhan while I was in Madison. It is definitely more different there--coz you seem to be alone with no family members, and all you can depend on is yourself. I find myself more easily being myself when i'm alone. How i miss that feeling of having freedom and independence.

In your own country, you feel blessed with all the people surrounding you, of the same religion or culture. It makes you feel comfortable and it seems like there's nothing to worry about. But when you are all alone in a different place which you've never been to before, and only accompanied by friends or acquaintances that may come and go at anytime of the day, you definitely know there has to be SOMETHING or SOMEONE to cry on to. That i've experienced in US was not simply a journey of me studying abroad and getting a degree, come back and work. It WAS totally part of my intention,being the daughter who tries to make her parents happy. But it was NOT totally the outcome of what had been experienced---none that I could literally describe with words. So this is just mere description of what I can say. The going-through-everyday of what I used to call 'unwanted sacrifices' after all turned out to be something that I cherish and will cherish until the end of time --an experience of the heart and soul that I could never picture in just one single portrait. I'd rather call it the journey of the heart and soul because the whole 2+ years I was there, was spent in just to adapt to the whole situation while still trying to be a true Muslimah. These first two years only witnessed my physical presence. My heart and soul was somewhere else, in a world still full of wonders while my physical self was forced to go through the everyday routines that i HAD to do. I never knew it would be so hard to go through such thing, but now I'm glad He actually planned it just for me.

Even though i have a best friend back here in Malaysia, I would say my best friend while i was there were my tears. Almost the entire journey was flooded with me crying and thinking of things that I never really had to think about. I was probably too naive. Too naive that I didn't get to grasp the reality of life and what truth actually is. People would see me as someone too weak to even go through a small test, but I see it as something that gives me strength up until now, and I hope in the coming future.

As i'm thinking back to the days i had there, i never think so much about the degree i had or the sole reason/intention i had before. It was not a journey to satisfy my needs for this world per se, but something worth much more than anything i could think of. Each and every step involved must have its own reason and I know that Allah helps me all the way. If not for HIS will to keep me strong while shedding into tears, i'd just be dead. Not physically, but spiritually dead.

And finally, from everything that He made me go through, from the walking to classes and going through exams, to the personal issues put on my shoulder with some people making my life so miserable --throwing words at me, torturing my mind, I guess the latter part personal issues) was never necessary in the first place. But Allah thought it was something useful for me. And now, I do think the same too, because without those problems He made me suffer through, I wouldn't probably become the person I am actually now. And this Ramadhan just makes me flash back all the memories I had--and Oh, those iftars, tarawih prayers and tajweed classes, my arabic class and teacher! How I miss them.

So it was not the actuarial science degree that was the main agenda..it was this journey of life that He wanted me to go through as a test that I thought i'd never be able to go through...And all that, made me change my intention in everything i do now...and there's only ONE sole reason in every single task in life, and the reason is HIM.

~Adaruz Collections~ :)

Alhamdulillah dah selesai buat blog utk biz bersama Seedah & Soraya :)
our blog address is:

http://adaruzcollections.blogspot.com/

baru upload shawls and inner...there's plenty more to come!!


yeayy~~ hehe

::Gambar favorite::

ni gambar favorite sbb all the three of us ada dlm pic..yg lain semua sbb takde org lain nak amik, mesti ada 2 org je...so takleh la jadi favorite pic..hehe

:: can't wait ::

Salaam :D

semalam hari yang sunggguh panjang tp sangat enjoy...pengalaman yang tak dpt dilupakan bersama 2 org adik yg sgt comel...hehe

anyways tak sabar rasanya nak start business jualan tudung, blouse, dan dress..inshaAllah dlm bulan 8 ni dah boleh start jual...yeayy :)

hope my one month break from school will be worthwhile with this pastime, inshaAllah..yg penting biarlah niat baik kerana Allah dan tidak langsung berkaitan dengan kehendak duniawi...mudah-mudahan diberi peluang dan kejayaan dari masa ke masa...ameen...ya Rabb::

bila cinta tak lagi bermakna...

kadang-kadang susah nak buat setiap orang di sekeliling kita gembira. susah nak ikut rentak setiap orang...sampaikan selalunya diri kita yang terpaksa mengikut kehendak orang lain dan mengabaikan kehendak diri sendiri...

kadang-kadang sukar untuk buat orang faham diri kita, lantas kita berkorban demi memahami orang lain...bukan sengaja utk menyakitkan hati org, tapi dalam realiti tu mmg orang sakit hati dgn kita...kadang-kadang kecewa sbb tak dapat nak buat orang gembira dengan kita, tapi jiwa sendiri memerlukan perhatian juga..

baru-baru ni rasa bersalah sbb tak dpt nak tolong seseorang, disebabkan kesibukan diri sendiri...rasa bersalah jugak bila tak dapat nak meluangkan masa terutamanya bersama keluarga dan mungkin dengan cara/kelakuan sendiri buat mereka terasa...

tapi kalau diri sendiri tak dapat menguatkan hati untuk menempuh semua ni, taktaula apa nak jadi...sbb takde orang pun akan tolong...

apa2 pun semuanya takkan ada sorang pun yang mengerti...diri kita masing-masing menempuh segala dugaan yang unik dan diberi oleh Allah untuk kita sedar bahawa hanya Allah yang mengerti semua pada setiap masa....tiada satu manusia pun yang mengerti walau mcm mana kita mengadu sekalipun...kerana hanya Allah yang dapat mengambil watak itu...

akhir sekali, nk mintak maaf kat semua yang pernah disakiti sama ada secara sengaja atau tidak...dari ini diriku sgt sedar bahawa selalunya yang kita tak sengaja menyakitkan itulah yang buat kita lagi dekat dengan Allah...kerana hanya Dia yang faham, DIa yang tahu kenapa kita terpaksa melakukan apa yang kita perlu lakukan...

hanya Allah yang mengerti sepenuh-penuhnya...

i love you, honestly i do...

still have some more pages to write for the assignment..inshaAllah akan siap jugakkk...sikit-sikit lama2 jadi bukit jugak kan...apa-apa pun, as long as semua dilakukan kerana Allah, inshaAllah ada kebaikannya..mudah-mudahan Allah berkati dan sentiasa di sisiku yang selalu lemah dan tidak berdaya...ampunilah dosa hambaMu ini~~


p.s. ignore the titles of my blog..saje je buat contradictory--tajuk lain, isi lain :p
ok dah 1.31 a.m. nak tido japp

::Drowning in your LOVE::

tak dapat nak tulis byk kat blog...next saturday start final exam...as much as i don't want to go thru exams, i just want to get over them as soooon as possible..pastu cuti and start buat biz skit, inshaAllah.. yeayy :D

mood today ::Happy::
:)

sakit perutttttttttt :(

huhuhu can't sleep well...i was trying to sleep since 2.30am but i can't...and skrg tengah sakit perut yg amat sgt...taktaula kenapa...tak penah pun rasa sakit camni...gastrik ke ape pun taktau...huhu...rasa mcm takmo gi kelas je........wuuuu

...sayu...

tahla kenapa ekk rasa cam sayuuu sgt..nak nangis pun ada...huhu biasalah kan takde kebahagiaan yg akan kekal...huu serious air mata nak keluar dah...tapi takde sebab yg particular pun...takpelah..maybe i need some rest...esok kelas 6 JAM lagik...dari 8.30 pagi sampai 2.30 ptg...huhuhu mudah-mudahan ilmu yang dicurahkan senang utk meresap ke dalam mindakuu...

huhu takmo sedih2 dah fairuz.....Allah kan ada utk mendengar..:)...manusia biasalah kan, kadang2 ada utk kita, kadang2 tak ada utk kita..kadang2 buat kita rasa diperlukan..kadang2 rasa mcm tak diperlukan langsung...huhu emosi mengganggu di pagi sabtu @1.51 a.m

....yang penting, hanya Allah tempat bergantung, utk segala perasaan yang ada..sedih, gembira, marah, sayang,...semualah. Hanya Dia yang mengerti.

absence makes the heart grow fonder

this is a phrase that we always had to write an essay on masa sekolahh...and only now i realized how true it is, i think if i were to write one now, it could reach around 10 pages :p...what i can say is that i am actually happy today coz dapat tau something that i actually subconsciously knew and just needed confirmation :)

hmm thank you :) (you know who you are if you read this)

Morning~~

Today is actually my brother's birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (that's if you ever read my blog..hehe)

just this morning after subuh, as i was doing some exercise in my room, some random thoughts came to mind. just the thoughts of a youtube video i watched yesterday made me think quite a bit. it's just that sometimes maybe as human beings we tend to forget to be thankful with all the little things which are actually REALLY BIG. Even the possibility of having water supply should come to our mind as a nikmah from Allah that we should be thankful for. It may be something so little at the back of our minds that water is something necessary and so important that we MUST have water; but we forget to remind ourselves how and why Allah made possible the supply itself. And thus, we forget to thank Allah for the little little things, because we take them for GRANTED.

And i'm right now imagining our lives in the everyday tasks that we have to go through..generally people wake up, drive to work, have lunch, go back to work, until evening then go back home in the hectic traffic jam--arrive home, have dinner, and feel soo tired that we are left only with sleeping time. And this repeats EVERYDAY. As for me, since i'm only studying for now, i'd wake up and do some studying, reading, then go to class, come back home, surf the net etc.

We get so obsessed with the worldly figures of life that we tend to lose sight of the real reason why we are actually in this world. Why Allah created us. Why he tests us. And most of all, we forget to actually get to know who we are in reality. I mean the REAL REALITY. This is another term that needs more elaboration on since people tend to always think of the situation we live in now is the reality, but i'd call it the fantasy; that is if we only do the things i mentioned above repeatedly for the whole of our days, without the REAL INTENTION OF SERVING ALLAH. Why I call it fantasy? Fantasy because we are fantasizing on everything that we forget our own self. We do work because of the intention to get money. We go through life as it is the most important thing. We think about the future on getting a good education and good job to have full satisfaction in our lives to live better and to serve our future generations. But do we think to the extent of doing things for the future FUTURE that is for SURE going to take us? Even our future of living and getting all these satisfaction of life is not certain, so why do we bother so much about it and not think about the most CERTAIN life in the hereafter?

I quote from the Prophet s.a.w. that a person who knows himself, would know his CREATOR. And this made me think so much--how many people in this world actually know themselves then? we tend to think that we know ourselves so much, but in reality, we don't probably know 90 percent of our own inner selves if we cannot make Allah as the only point of intention in our everyday challenges of life.

So how do we actually try to come to know us and finally know our CREATOR?
As human beings, we all have this weakness inside of us, and also this strong part of our heart that can control the weaknesses. It's just sometimes that our strength goes down and we feel lost in reality, therefore seek for things without making rational sense--making our hearts weaker and weaker. But if we realize the only reason we are on earth today, i'd think that we can be stronger. But this needs repetition. We need reminders. We need solid practice. We need HIM to guide us.
That's plain simple in the life that we human beings make more complicated.

Whatever it is, we are just here on earth as actors of life on the stage of earth--just like those in the movie, except this one is REALLY REALLY a big movie. And therefore, we have to remind ourselves that our hearts will become weak if we do not seek guidance from Allah and just leave it at that. As how we need everyday practice to become better at things, our hearts need reminders EVERYDAY so that we are on track, on the right path. Allah is ALWAYS ALWAYS there for each and every human being on earth, at any time, at any particular part of day or night--He waits for us to come to HIM and repent, and admit all our weaknesses in front of HIM, He forgives, He guides, He listens.

And all we need in life is just to know ourselves--coz by knowing ourselves, we get to know HIM...But if somehow as i said, think we already know ourselves, but we still are far away from HIM, that means we don't actually know the real us..therefore we still have a long long way in building solid hearts so that we can be reminded of the things we do and why we do them--either for satisfying our nafs or are we doing it just for the sake of Allah? A thought for today, especially to myself...

testing upload gambar..heheh...a pic of my cat yg sgt manja dan mengada-ngada :D

Scrambled Eggs.

hehe lawak la pulak malam ni...dah kul 3.15 tadi adik buat scrambled eggs....teringinn sgt nak makan...tp ingat nak tido dah, so takleh la makan....scrambled eggs je pun tapi rasa cam lama sgt tak makan, coz kat us dluu slaluu buat scrambled eggs pagi2 before kelas....ohhh i so miss my life over there...wanna go back somehow.

thank YOU ALLAH for the strength you give to my heart =)

Alhamdulillah, setelah merangkak-rangkah mencari bahan dan idea untuk menulis term paper...harini dah mencecah 10 muka surat and dah habis pun..:) cuma tinggal nak check and do some touch ups here and there...tapi mmg banyakla ilmu yang dapat dari membuat assignment capital market ni....as horrible as it sounds, i never liked the subject capital market, coz mmg tak suka nak cuba memahami subjek ini...huhu it's kind of difficult to understand especially for someone like me yg tak prnah nak bekerja di bank or anything to do with investment stuff..tapi takpela semua ada hikmah, inshaAllah...

dari assignment yg prof Monzer Kahf suruh buat ni, mmg dapat byk knowledge on sukuk (something that i dreaded to even look up in books) ..tp disebabkan kena buat assignment ni, mmg like it or not, i have to find information on it...Alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan...

Walaupun awal2 haritu rasa mcm nak drop sbjek ni, tapi dah half way dah pun...midterm hritu pun dah lepas, even markah not so good, but at least i've gone thru it and in less than a month, habis dah pun course ni.

apa2 pun, bila kita tekun berusaha mendapatkan sesuatu, Allah pasti membantu dengan membuka jalan untuk kita...Allah Maha Pemurah, Maha Mengerti, lagi Mengasihani hamba-Nya...

sgt2 bersyukur dengan apa yg ada, mudah-mudahan segala yang baik itu dipermudahkan lagi dan janganlah wujudkan sikap putus asa dalam diriku ini....

ok now it's nearly 3 a.m...

ckuplah sampai di sini..cewah mcm lagu sedih je...hihi
merepek sudahku di pagi-pagi ni...

wassalam..

i love it when you said.......

i asked how would i know whether a person truly loves you or not....the answer really made me think, and after a moment, i smiled :)
this was the answer...if that person is able to still stay with you no matter what happens or what comes out of your mouth...then doesn't that mean he/she really loves you?

hmmm then i was thinking to myself...that's probably true...coz if person A cannot able to stand anymore of B's attitude, he or she would just leave right...and i quote from another friend, saying that a guy would understand a girl truly if: either
(a) He loves you crazily
(b) He is holding on just because you are too good for him..

this one made me think too....anyway this is just for some thinking :)
enough for tonight...it's 4 a.m! and i'm still in front of my laptop..ish ish

satUrday eXam

today we had an exam for Islamic capital market...i somehow didn't get enough satisfaction of answering the questions...the first part especially since the prof only allowed 3 lines MAXIMUM to answer one question...rasa mcm baru nak tulis, dah 3 lines dah...hihi...so taktaula the points he is expecting ada ke tak...hmmm

semoga Allah lembutkan hati prof utk marking paper tu..amin....

sometimes,,,,

Sometimes you just got to understand other ppl when they just don't seem to care to even try and understand you. Sometimes you feel like it's only you who tries and thinks of all sorts of stuff that goes on and on in your mind and no one else knows. Sometimes you just got to accept that everyone is just different from each other and that sacrificing your own feelings may be the best solution. But it is not sometimes that Allah looks out for you. He ALWAYS does. It is not sometimes that He hears you. He ALWAYS hears everyone speak, even with the voices of the hearts. It is not sometimes that He gives his mercy. He POSSESSES it for eternity.

Just lay your hands out and pray, think hard of HIM and HIS messenger p.b.u.h. and definitely you'd shed a tear if not more...And when that happens, you'll realize how grateful you should be to still at least be given the chance to improve yourself, before He takes you away...

Oh Ibu....

baru habis tengok telemovie kat astro oasis bertajuk "Oh Ibu"...sgt sedih cerita ni tambah dengan background music lagu ohh ibuu...menangis nangis tengok cite ni...cite dia pasal sorang lelaki ni pegi study oversea kat UK...hmmm study architecture pulak tu...and ms balik malaysia dah ada calon isteri yg dia kenal kt london tu..dah balik msia bukan nak balik rumah mak dia kat kampung, dia pegi stay kat rumah gf dia kat KL...and when dia balik kampung jumpa mak dia, dia kata dia baru sampai je dari UK...kat kampung tu pulak ada sorang girl ni yg dok jaga mak dia masa lelaki ni pegi study kt UK...dia pun ada hati jgak kat laki tu...

bila dah kawin, wife dia (girl yg dia kenal ms kat UK) mmg suka buat mengada ngada..in fact before kawin pun dah camtu..ish ish...saje je takmau bagi laki tu balik kampung jumpa mak dia sedangkan orang dah dok call dari kampung nak bagitau mak dia sakit...last2 dia sampai kat kampung, mak dia mmg dah nazak sgt and meninggal dalam pelukan dia...sgt sedih...and ending tu ada dia tulis

"kadang-kadang kita sbg anak tidak menyedari kelakuan kita yang melukai hati ibu"

mmg sgt2 sedih...pengajaran paling penting is to always jaga hati ibu walau mcm mana kita sibuk pun...tapi kadang2 kita ada jugak buat sesuatu yg menyakitkan hati ibu..tanpa kita sedar...mudah-mudahan diampunkan dosa2kuu pada ibu....huhu
lagi satu pengajaran is that kalau dah jadi isteri tu nnt tak boleh nak terlalu harapkan lelaki tu beri tumpuan kat kita lebih dari ibunya...biarlah kalau dia nak sayang ibu dia lebih dari kita pun, sebab ibu dia yg lebih berhak ke atas seorang lelaki kan...kalau kita sayang seseorang tu, kita perlulah sayang jugak org yang dia sayang, baru happy...takkan nak harap perhatian diberi sepenuhnya pada kita je 24 jam kan....besides, Allah sentiasa ada utk kita sebagai isteri jdi tempat mengadu kalau rasa mcm cemburu kat mak mertua sendiri..cewah cakap mcm dh kawin pulak kan...hopefully i will become a better person day by day and taknaklah susahkan suami dengan mengada ngada sgt sampai tak bagi dia tunjukkan kasih sayang kat ibu dia..

Lastly, mudah-mudahan Allah mengampuni dosa2 kita sebagai hamba dan dosa2 kita sesama manusia...

Reminder for today,..

Sesungguhnya Allah itu sentiasa menguji...mungkin manusia itu diuji kerana dosa-dosanya yang lalu, atau mungkin diuji kerana Allah mengasihinya...

dan apabila seseorang itu dianugerahkan dengan pelbagai jenis rezeki yang melimpah ruah, tidaklah sentiasa bererti bahawa dia dikasihi Allah kerana mungkin anugerah itu juga boleh jadi satu bentuk ujian untuk manusia menyedari kuasa Allah...

dan apabila seseorang itu diberi pula segala bentuk kekurangan rezeki, harta, dan segala jenis kekurangan, tidak pula sentiasa bererti bahawa Allah murka padanya..kerana kekurangan itu lebih membuatkan manusia mencari yang Maha Esa berbanding dengan kemewahan yang pasti melekakan dan membuat manusia alpa..

Maka apabila sesuatu kegembiraan atau kesedihan itu menimpa kita, ingatlah sentiasa pada Allah, kerana tiada apa yang kekal lamanya, berbanding dengan Dia yang tiada mengenal erti noktah dalam ilmu dan kekuasaan-Nya.

Study study study!

Hmmm banyak nak kena baca baca dan baca...need to do an outline for my capital market class by next thursday, hopefully by monday i can submit it...then comes studying for the midterm exam, writing the term paper, then the summary...and at the same time for fiqh muamalat, need to start on the group project and writing!
ok need some rest now.

not feeling very well...?

Hmmm harini rasa mcm tak ok sgt...although it's a friday...but alhamdulillah the feeling is better than yesterday :)..sometimes kena fikir jugak kenapa our feelings don't seem right..and most of the time there must be something bugging me that makes me feel unwell...hrmmm and i guess i like figuring out why my mood is different today compared to other days and what actually makes my feelings change...as for today, i guess the thing that is bugging me is today is the fact that i have class this evening...is that a problem? ish ishh..cubalah ikhlaskan hati, go to class with an open heart with the intention to get lots of knowledge...inshaAllah...

"Ketahuilah, sesungguhanya kehidupan dunia itu hanyalah permainan dan senda gurauan, perhiasan dan saling berbangga di antara kamu serta berlomba dalam kekayaan dan anak keturunan, seperti hujan yang tanam – tanamannya mengagumkan para petani; kemudian ( tanaman ) itu menjadi kering dan kamu lihat warnanya kuning kemudian menjadi hancur. Dan di akhirat (nanti) ada azab yang keras dan ampunan dari Allah serta keridhaan-Nya. Dan kehidupan dunia tidak lain hanyalah kesenangan yang palsu."

(Surah Hadid, ayat 20)

quoted from a blog "Pahami konteks keseluruhan tersebut. Pemahaman yang coba di ajarkan Tuhan melalui (terjemahan) wahyu ini adalah bahwa hidup adalah sebuah permainan yang jangka waktunya pendek, maka dari itu kita harus menjadi pemain dari “permainan kehidupan”, bukannya main – main dalam kehidupan."

~~2.25 a.m~~

~Bismillah,

just finished watching this ten minute video...and one question keeps lingering inside my head---what is the ultimate thing that we are all chasing for in this life...is it worth it? or are we just letting those people take control of our lives----things we learn may just be ideas and perceptions that are created to brainwash us....the real TRUTH is definitely distorted...May Allah save us from all the destruction.

::MARA::

Bismillah,

today i will be going to MARA office to settle some problems...let's hope everything will go smooth and hopefully i won't have to pay that 100%! InshaAllah~

Long time NO See.......

Bismillah..

IT has been almost 5 months since i wrote in my blog again....was busy with my second semester and forgot that i actually had a blog :p. Now i am already on holiday for about 3 weeks and my third semester is just around the corner. As much as i am bored staying at home and not going to classes, I pretty much enjoy the solitude and not having to deal with so much stress for quite some time. And i bet when it comes to 7th June (summer classes start), i will get headaches and stress and what not. :p. It is somehow interesting to think about what Allah has set for me in that things go up and down, life gets sooo busy and then He lets you rest, your mind thinks so much about the future, and then He lets you off your mind, and above all, you go down and under, and He brings you back up again. Whatever it make take, I know that sometimes it's gonna rain (as quoted from my sister :)) but that rain is somehow something that brings the forthcoming happiness. A rainbow would not be seen if the sun and rain does not combine with each other...so life would not be so much of colors if the ups don't collaborate with the downs...so SMILE, even if things are bitter...coz the bitterness must be a way from Him to bring you to the sweetness of life........only He knows best =)

be thankful...

Sometimes it's just hard to accept what you gotta to in life. sometimes you don't even want to go through such tribulations and hardships that come across without even saying hello. It's just not possible to know what you will be going through in life, and list down what you actually choose to take and avoid. Life would be insignificant.

Every human being on earth is tested. Tested in the form of a longlife journey that we don't even have the right to choose. We can say we like or dislike something, but we can never opt out of something that is just in our way. Life obviously has its ups and downs that we can never avoid. When we are in our ups of life, we are definitely HAPPY and SMILING and THANKFUL. But it's just not fair for us to be happy all the time. It's just plain logic to be tested with all kinds of negatives in life to make sure that we are genuine in being a slave to our Creator. If we are just given pure happiness without having to actually strive, again, life would be very very insignificant.

It is that part that comes and knocks us down and brings us to the bottom of the cycle is what actually makes us worried, scared, and hopeless. Even, we may have at some point in life said that LIFE IS NEVER FAIR. But do we actually have the license to say such things when we already know that it is not fair to ALWAYS be happy. Then what is the point of living on earth and having interactions with people and animals if the only thing we get from this is happiness? Moreover if we realize that this is TEMPORARY HAPPINESS?

People definitely complain. A LOT. But it is just because we don't realize how much we have gotten so far in life and just because of this downward journey that slaps us on the face, we tend to complain so much and sort of being ignorant towards what has been in our HAPPY part of life. Is this FAIR?

I guess the most important thing is to just think thoroughly about the significance of life. We have a lot of choices in life, but we rarely make the right ones. WHY? The answer is dead obvious. Because we are not THANKFUL ENOUGH. We normally make choices just hoping that this decision would bring total happiness. But do we actually ask for the true way of making decisions? Do we seek guidance from our Creator when we need to decide? And do we realize that when we make decisions out of hoping that it will bring us 'eternal' happiness WITHOUT first asking for guidance, we tend to be upset and further complain, saying that LIFE IS NOT FAIR. Again.


Life is just plain simple. It is not always on top. And it is not always at the bottom. It is absolutely FAIR. Because HE is the one that created us and knows every single thing that needs to be done. So ask for His Guidance and protection, and definitely, be thankful for every single part of your life, even if it is bitter. Coz that bitter part of your life is the beginning of a sweet memory. He is never unfair, so be THANKFUL. =)