Bismillah..
I just wanted to write something about an interesting stuff i encountered today..I was at this wedding 'kenduri' with my sister. It was her friend's wedding and so we went to Kelab Shah Alam (i think?). When we arrived, my sister parked behind this lorry and we walked a little distance up the hill; suddenly my sister realized she lost her anklet. We then walked back along the path and i found it!;)
Okay that was not the point of writing. Anyways, after greeting the couples' parents, we went in the hall and wow! the bridegroom was just like him;p...i told my sister and she agreed with me up to the max. I couldn't stop looking at him but at the same time i told myself not to coz he's somebody's husband (!). And even if he weren't someone's husband, it'd still be wrong to look at him more than once. hiks. whatever it is, i really hope to get married with him=) (of course NOT the bridegroom la!, hihi)
i'm so glad to have Allah put my life story this way, despite the long journey of ups and downs, coz for the first time i just feel so much cared about even though we don't have all this mushy mushy stuff..and for the first time i feel that everything i want just blends in with what he wants. i have never felt much more understood by a guy and i'm so happy that our mission in life are just the same. and the most important thing is, the first time we met after a year knowing each other just felt so easy and unplanned and my heart just felt so calm seeing his face. it just seems like we've known each other for years. thank you (if you ever read this), for the kindness that you possess, the patience that you have in always dealing with me, the calmness you bring into my life every time i get overwhelmed with problems, the advices you give without giving up and most importantly, your sincerity in just accepting me the way i am and seeing my weaknesses as my strengths....all i hope is just that Allah answers my prayers and all that i have ever wanted in this life in being His full time slave;)amiin
Sunday, June 28, 2009
some things just cannot go my way...
Bismillah,
Alhamdulillah things are back to normal again..But some things are just unchangeable...especially when it comes to my emotional needs. Okay, i don't want to start complaining. Everything is just temporary and so are all the bad feelings that are kept inside. Sometimes it's just not worth to talk about how i feel especially when people just won't understand me. And that shows that Allah wants me to talk to Him, and tell Him all my miseries and problems. Afterall, only He could help me settle all those stuff banging inside my head. Honestly, problems that i'm facing are just little little ones at the moment, compared to other people who are less fortunate. And I thank Allah for everything that i own and possess all this while. The problem is just that I think far too much from what i should. That's what's making me all haywire sometimes. Seriously, things are just too easy to put under control. It's whether I want to or not. It's all in my hands, as long as Allah lets me do them. And again, I really thank Him for letting me go through all this stuff coz it makes me a much mature person and in reality, He makes me realize how things in life are just unavoidable sometimes and the only way to solve problems is through compromising. Even though most of the time compromising seems too hard, it's always the easiest solution, as long as i can be patient with what i'm going through. Maybe i'm not yet on my way to face the real world, but i'm sure i'm ready to face any challenges that will come. All i need is a whole lot of faith, a little confidence, a bucket of support, and a pinch of trust.
Alhamdulillah things are back to normal again..But some things are just unchangeable...especially when it comes to my emotional needs. Okay, i don't want to start complaining. Everything is just temporary and so are all the bad feelings that are kept inside. Sometimes it's just not worth to talk about how i feel especially when people just won't understand me. And that shows that Allah wants me to talk to Him, and tell Him all my miseries and problems. Afterall, only He could help me settle all those stuff banging inside my head. Honestly, problems that i'm facing are just little little ones at the moment, compared to other people who are less fortunate. And I thank Allah for everything that i own and possess all this while. The problem is just that I think far too much from what i should. That's what's making me all haywire sometimes. Seriously, things are just too easy to put under control. It's whether I want to or not. It's all in my hands, as long as Allah lets me do them. And again, I really thank Him for letting me go through all this stuff coz it makes me a much mature person and in reality, He makes me realize how things in life are just unavoidable sometimes and the only way to solve problems is through compromising. Even though most of the time compromising seems too hard, it's always the easiest solution, as long as i can be patient with what i'm going through. Maybe i'm not yet on my way to face the real world, but i'm sure i'm ready to face any challenges that will come. All i need is a whole lot of faith, a little confidence, a bucket of support, and a pinch of trust.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Tawakkal
Bismillah..
I've been sitting at home for nearly a month now and i'm still hoping for something that is clearly suitable for me..and I keep reminding myself that there will always be something for me as long as i have some effort and at t he same time keep praying. Okay, enough of my babbles.
The concept of tawakkal is probably the most important thing that someone should learn to live peacefully on earth. If we realize how temporary this world is and how we should really obey Allah's rules, we will notice that the concept of tawakkal will keep us straight on His path. Sometimes we've worked so hard to gain something that we want without realizing that everything is already written for us even before we were born. And at that exact time where we fail to accomplish to reach our goals and desires, we feel apalled and stressed out, as though there is nothing else that could be done. This might lead us to feel like life is not on our side and even worse, we would feel that life is never fair. However, if we think positively, in terms of how Allah had created us, we would never feel this way. If we realize that we are only His slaves on earth, we would only do what is told and avoid ourselves from all the things He prohibits us to do. This is never easy. But if we could bow down and kneel to him, at the same time feel that there is nothing greater than Him, this process becomes something easier to do, as long as we practice it throughout our daily lives. I just read in a friends blog about something related to this kneeling process to Allah-she quoted that as human being we must face problems and these problems run from our head to our knees...and when we kneel down to Allah, our problems will slowly be solved as we get closer to Allah. And again, I'd like to quote something that she always writes in her blog : it doesn't take a genius to see and feel all this. It only needs someone who can actually realize how small and insignificant everything in this world is besides our imaan. If we can strive to be this kind of person, I would say 99% of the current global issues can be resolved. However, the ambiguity that lies in all aspects of human life blurs out the significance of reality. People are too busy thinking and planning for their future, their health, their beings in the future that they fail to rationalize that there is ONE being that is also planning; in fact, He has already planned it ages ago when we don't even know it. We as His slaves should take a step backwards and think about this thoroughly. I personally feel that the world is going too fast especially when I am outside and seeing people in the working life. People are getting too busy with their own work and thinking about themselves and what's going to happen next. But we actually need to always remind ourselves where those things are going to bring us. When every little thing happens to us, we should stop for a moment and think why this is happening. We need to put our egoistic selves aside and see if these things are happening because of our own weaknesses or others. And for sure, people will definitely, (and always) point their fingers to other people. Why does this happen? I guess 90% of it comes from the zero level of tawakkal in our hearts: A person who has full sincerity towards Allah and acts only for the sake of Allah will definitely (and easily) obtain this concept of tawakkal. They will never point to others' faults nor will they complain and complain every time something doesn't go their way. Yes, they will certainly work hard to achieve something they really want badly, but if that thing is not on their side, they understand that it is a sign from Allah that this something is just not for them. But no, they never complain. They accept it freely without feeling regretful or angry. It is undeniable that sometimes we will feel sad, but the sad feeling will not lead is to feeling lost or hopeless, if we are the true believers. Think about it, and think deeply. This is just a reminder for myself and whoever gets the opportunity to read this. Just a quick note from the Quran in surah at-Talaq, Allah already reminded us about the concept of tawakkal, and here goes:
And for those who fear Allah, He (ever) prepares a way out (2) And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if anyone puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is (Allah) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish His purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. (3)
Wallahua'lam
I've been sitting at home for nearly a month now and i'm still hoping for something that is clearly suitable for me..and I keep reminding myself that there will always be something for me as long as i have some effort and at t he same time keep praying. Okay, enough of my babbles.
The concept of tawakkal is probably the most important thing that someone should learn to live peacefully on earth. If we realize how temporary this world is and how we should really obey Allah's rules, we will notice that the concept of tawakkal will keep us straight on His path. Sometimes we've worked so hard to gain something that we want without realizing that everything is already written for us even before we were born. And at that exact time where we fail to accomplish to reach our goals and desires, we feel apalled and stressed out, as though there is nothing else that could be done. This might lead us to feel like life is not on our side and even worse, we would feel that life is never fair. However, if we think positively, in terms of how Allah had created us, we would never feel this way. If we realize that we are only His slaves on earth, we would only do what is told and avoid ourselves from all the things He prohibits us to do. This is never easy. But if we could bow down and kneel to him, at the same time feel that there is nothing greater than Him, this process becomes something easier to do, as long as we practice it throughout our daily lives. I just read in a friends blog about something related to this kneeling process to Allah-she quoted that as human being we must face problems and these problems run from our head to our knees...and when we kneel down to Allah, our problems will slowly be solved as we get closer to Allah. And again, I'd like to quote something that she always writes in her blog : it doesn't take a genius to see and feel all this. It only needs someone who can actually realize how small and insignificant everything in this world is besides our imaan. If we can strive to be this kind of person, I would say 99% of the current global issues can be resolved. However, the ambiguity that lies in all aspects of human life blurs out the significance of reality. People are too busy thinking and planning for their future, their health, their beings in the future that they fail to rationalize that there is ONE being that is also planning; in fact, He has already planned it ages ago when we don't even know it. We as His slaves should take a step backwards and think about this thoroughly. I personally feel that the world is going too fast especially when I am outside and seeing people in the working life. People are getting too busy with their own work and thinking about themselves and what's going to happen next. But we actually need to always remind ourselves where those things are going to bring us. When every little thing happens to us, we should stop for a moment and think why this is happening. We need to put our egoistic selves aside and see if these things are happening because of our own weaknesses or others. And for sure, people will definitely, (and always) point their fingers to other people. Why does this happen? I guess 90% of it comes from the zero level of tawakkal in our hearts: A person who has full sincerity towards Allah and acts only for the sake of Allah will definitely (and easily) obtain this concept of tawakkal. They will never point to others' faults nor will they complain and complain every time something doesn't go their way. Yes, they will certainly work hard to achieve something they really want badly, but if that thing is not on their side, they understand that it is a sign from Allah that this something is just not for them. But no, they never complain. They accept it freely without feeling regretful or angry. It is undeniable that sometimes we will feel sad, but the sad feeling will not lead is to feeling lost or hopeless, if we are the true believers. Think about it, and think deeply. This is just a reminder for myself and whoever gets the opportunity to read this. Just a quick note from the Quran in surah at-Talaq, Allah already reminded us about the concept of tawakkal, and here goes:
And for those who fear Allah, He (ever) prepares a way out (2) And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if anyone puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is (Allah) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish His purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. (3)
Wallahua'lam
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