::Gambar favorite::

ni gambar favorite sbb all the three of us ada dlm pic..yg lain semua sbb takde org lain nak amik, mesti ada 2 org je...so takleh la jadi favorite pic..hehe

:: can't wait ::

Salaam :D

semalam hari yang sunggguh panjang tp sangat enjoy...pengalaman yang tak dpt dilupakan bersama 2 org adik yg sgt comel...hehe

anyways tak sabar rasanya nak start business jualan tudung, blouse, dan dress..inshaAllah dlm bulan 8 ni dah boleh start jual...yeayy :)

hope my one month break from school will be worthwhile with this pastime, inshaAllah..yg penting biarlah niat baik kerana Allah dan tidak langsung berkaitan dengan kehendak duniawi...mudah-mudahan diberi peluang dan kejayaan dari masa ke masa...ameen...ya Rabb::

bila cinta tak lagi bermakna...

kadang-kadang susah nak buat setiap orang di sekeliling kita gembira. susah nak ikut rentak setiap orang...sampaikan selalunya diri kita yang terpaksa mengikut kehendak orang lain dan mengabaikan kehendak diri sendiri...

kadang-kadang sukar untuk buat orang faham diri kita, lantas kita berkorban demi memahami orang lain...bukan sengaja utk menyakitkan hati org, tapi dalam realiti tu mmg orang sakit hati dgn kita...kadang-kadang kecewa sbb tak dapat nak buat orang gembira dengan kita, tapi jiwa sendiri memerlukan perhatian juga..

baru-baru ni rasa bersalah sbb tak dpt nak tolong seseorang, disebabkan kesibukan diri sendiri...rasa bersalah jugak bila tak dapat nak meluangkan masa terutamanya bersama keluarga dan mungkin dengan cara/kelakuan sendiri buat mereka terasa...

tapi kalau diri sendiri tak dapat menguatkan hati untuk menempuh semua ni, taktaula apa nak jadi...sbb takde orang pun akan tolong...

apa2 pun semuanya takkan ada sorang pun yang mengerti...diri kita masing-masing menempuh segala dugaan yang unik dan diberi oleh Allah untuk kita sedar bahawa hanya Allah yang mengerti semua pada setiap masa....tiada satu manusia pun yang mengerti walau mcm mana kita mengadu sekalipun...kerana hanya Allah yang dapat mengambil watak itu...

akhir sekali, nk mintak maaf kat semua yang pernah disakiti sama ada secara sengaja atau tidak...dari ini diriku sgt sedar bahawa selalunya yang kita tak sengaja menyakitkan itulah yang buat kita lagi dekat dengan Allah...kerana hanya Dia yang faham, DIa yang tahu kenapa kita terpaksa melakukan apa yang kita perlu lakukan...

hanya Allah yang mengerti sepenuh-penuhnya...

i love you, honestly i do...

still have some more pages to write for the assignment..inshaAllah akan siap jugakkk...sikit-sikit lama2 jadi bukit jugak kan...apa-apa pun, as long as semua dilakukan kerana Allah, inshaAllah ada kebaikannya..mudah-mudahan Allah berkati dan sentiasa di sisiku yang selalu lemah dan tidak berdaya...ampunilah dosa hambaMu ini~~


p.s. ignore the titles of my blog..saje je buat contradictory--tajuk lain, isi lain :p
ok dah 1.31 a.m. nak tido japp

::Drowning in your LOVE::

tak dapat nak tulis byk kat blog...next saturday start final exam...as much as i don't want to go thru exams, i just want to get over them as soooon as possible..pastu cuti and start buat biz skit, inshaAllah.. yeayy :D

mood today ::Happy::
:)

sakit perutttttttttt :(

huhuhu can't sleep well...i was trying to sleep since 2.30am but i can't...and skrg tengah sakit perut yg amat sgt...taktaula kenapa...tak penah pun rasa sakit camni...gastrik ke ape pun taktau...huhu...rasa mcm takmo gi kelas je........wuuuu

...sayu...

tahla kenapa ekk rasa cam sayuuu sgt..nak nangis pun ada...huhu biasalah kan takde kebahagiaan yg akan kekal...huu serious air mata nak keluar dah...tapi takde sebab yg particular pun...takpelah..maybe i need some rest...esok kelas 6 JAM lagik...dari 8.30 pagi sampai 2.30 ptg...huhuhu mudah-mudahan ilmu yang dicurahkan senang utk meresap ke dalam mindakuu...

huhu takmo sedih2 dah fairuz.....Allah kan ada utk mendengar..:)...manusia biasalah kan, kadang2 ada utk kita, kadang2 tak ada utk kita..kadang2 buat kita rasa diperlukan..kadang2 rasa mcm tak diperlukan langsung...huhu emosi mengganggu di pagi sabtu @1.51 a.m

....yang penting, hanya Allah tempat bergantung, utk segala perasaan yang ada..sedih, gembira, marah, sayang,...semualah. Hanya Dia yang mengerti.

absence makes the heart grow fonder

this is a phrase that we always had to write an essay on masa sekolahh...and only now i realized how true it is, i think if i were to write one now, it could reach around 10 pages :p...what i can say is that i am actually happy today coz dapat tau something that i actually subconsciously knew and just needed confirmation :)

hmm thank you :) (you know who you are if you read this)

Morning~~

Today is actually my brother's birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (that's if you ever read my blog..hehe)

just this morning after subuh, as i was doing some exercise in my room, some random thoughts came to mind. just the thoughts of a youtube video i watched yesterday made me think quite a bit. it's just that sometimes maybe as human beings we tend to forget to be thankful with all the little things which are actually REALLY BIG. Even the possibility of having water supply should come to our mind as a nikmah from Allah that we should be thankful for. It may be something so little at the back of our minds that water is something necessary and so important that we MUST have water; but we forget to remind ourselves how and why Allah made possible the supply itself. And thus, we forget to thank Allah for the little little things, because we take them for GRANTED.

And i'm right now imagining our lives in the everyday tasks that we have to go through..generally people wake up, drive to work, have lunch, go back to work, until evening then go back home in the hectic traffic jam--arrive home, have dinner, and feel soo tired that we are left only with sleeping time. And this repeats EVERYDAY. As for me, since i'm only studying for now, i'd wake up and do some studying, reading, then go to class, come back home, surf the net etc.

We get so obsessed with the worldly figures of life that we tend to lose sight of the real reason why we are actually in this world. Why Allah created us. Why he tests us. And most of all, we forget to actually get to know who we are in reality. I mean the REAL REALITY. This is another term that needs more elaboration on since people tend to always think of the situation we live in now is the reality, but i'd call it the fantasy; that is if we only do the things i mentioned above repeatedly for the whole of our days, without the REAL INTENTION OF SERVING ALLAH. Why I call it fantasy? Fantasy because we are fantasizing on everything that we forget our own self. We do work because of the intention to get money. We go through life as it is the most important thing. We think about the future on getting a good education and good job to have full satisfaction in our lives to live better and to serve our future generations. But do we think to the extent of doing things for the future FUTURE that is for SURE going to take us? Even our future of living and getting all these satisfaction of life is not certain, so why do we bother so much about it and not think about the most CERTAIN life in the hereafter?

I quote from the Prophet s.a.w. that a person who knows himself, would know his CREATOR. And this made me think so much--how many people in this world actually know themselves then? we tend to think that we know ourselves so much, but in reality, we don't probably know 90 percent of our own inner selves if we cannot make Allah as the only point of intention in our everyday challenges of life.

So how do we actually try to come to know us and finally know our CREATOR?
As human beings, we all have this weakness inside of us, and also this strong part of our heart that can control the weaknesses. It's just sometimes that our strength goes down and we feel lost in reality, therefore seek for things without making rational sense--making our hearts weaker and weaker. But if we realize the only reason we are on earth today, i'd think that we can be stronger. But this needs repetition. We need reminders. We need solid practice. We need HIM to guide us.
That's plain simple in the life that we human beings make more complicated.

Whatever it is, we are just here on earth as actors of life on the stage of earth--just like those in the movie, except this one is REALLY REALLY a big movie. And therefore, we have to remind ourselves that our hearts will become weak if we do not seek guidance from Allah and just leave it at that. As how we need everyday practice to become better at things, our hearts need reminders EVERYDAY so that we are on track, on the right path. Allah is ALWAYS ALWAYS there for each and every human being on earth, at any time, at any particular part of day or night--He waits for us to come to HIM and repent, and admit all our weaknesses in front of HIM, He forgives, He guides, He listens.

And all we need in life is just to know ourselves--coz by knowing ourselves, we get to know HIM...But if somehow as i said, think we already know ourselves, but we still are far away from HIM, that means we don't actually know the real us..therefore we still have a long long way in building solid hearts so that we can be reminded of the things we do and why we do them--either for satisfying our nafs or are we doing it just for the sake of Allah? A thought for today, especially to myself...

testing upload gambar..heheh...a pic of my cat yg sgt manja dan mengada-ngada :D

Scrambled Eggs.

hehe lawak la pulak malam ni...dah kul 3.15 tadi adik buat scrambled eggs....teringinn sgt nak makan...tp ingat nak tido dah, so takleh la makan....scrambled eggs je pun tapi rasa cam lama sgt tak makan, coz kat us dluu slaluu buat scrambled eggs pagi2 before kelas....ohhh i so miss my life over there...wanna go back somehow.

thank YOU ALLAH for the strength you give to my heart =)

Alhamdulillah, setelah merangkak-rangkah mencari bahan dan idea untuk menulis term paper...harini dah mencecah 10 muka surat and dah habis pun..:) cuma tinggal nak check and do some touch ups here and there...tapi mmg banyakla ilmu yang dapat dari membuat assignment capital market ni....as horrible as it sounds, i never liked the subject capital market, coz mmg tak suka nak cuba memahami subjek ini...huhu it's kind of difficult to understand especially for someone like me yg tak prnah nak bekerja di bank or anything to do with investment stuff..tapi takpela semua ada hikmah, inshaAllah...

dari assignment yg prof Monzer Kahf suruh buat ni, mmg dapat byk knowledge on sukuk (something that i dreaded to even look up in books) ..tp disebabkan kena buat assignment ni, mmg like it or not, i have to find information on it...Alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan...

Walaupun awal2 haritu rasa mcm nak drop sbjek ni, tapi dah half way dah pun...midterm hritu pun dah lepas, even markah not so good, but at least i've gone thru it and in less than a month, habis dah pun course ni.

apa2 pun, bila kita tekun berusaha mendapatkan sesuatu, Allah pasti membantu dengan membuka jalan untuk kita...Allah Maha Pemurah, Maha Mengerti, lagi Mengasihani hamba-Nya...

sgt2 bersyukur dengan apa yg ada, mudah-mudahan segala yang baik itu dipermudahkan lagi dan janganlah wujudkan sikap putus asa dalam diriku ini....

ok now it's nearly 3 a.m...

ckuplah sampai di sini..cewah mcm lagu sedih je...hihi
merepek sudahku di pagi-pagi ni...

wassalam..